Why? Why can't I tell people no? And why can't I tell people no without the guilt? Am I not allowed to say no? Am I not allowed to just do what I want and maybe I just don't want to do what you're asking? Who said I'm not allowed to say no? Is it just part of me? Is it pressure from peers? Why am I filling this whole paragraph with questions? Am I feeling pressured to keep the questions going? Why?
I've given 5 years of constant "yes" but I know there's no one available right now that would be able to give the hours I give. Do I stay until that person comes along? Do I say hey that's not my problem? Do I turn my back on my community? Do I turn my back on my own words to others about giving back? Why do I keep asking myself these questions? Why does the question mark look like this? Does it have that hook because a question keeps you hanging by a hook until you get the answer?
This is just little sample on how my brain talks to me all day. Sorry for the headache.